this is my beautiful partner and husband and friend.
I am madly in love with him.


tears of hot white.
music and wool sweaters and too tight pants and an anchor and a birthday and a day at work and a voice i love and a voice i hate and a phonecall unrecieved and a walk away and a flag.

eggs and toast and avocado and no pepper so no sandwich.

locking the door and no goodbye and no i love you and the sound of the key instead and a plan and a brown couch and a pile of books.

loose hairs and too much hair and not enough hair.

rough hands and blood and dirty sheets and a bundle of grey.

getting to work late and no busy days but saturdays and no thanks.

wet wine glasses and old dishclothes and no alcohol and pills and violins in my ear.